The Affair
My affair which ultimately culminated to love dates
back to 1989,when Ranjita and I first met in my cousin's birthday party.
She was in IXth and I in the XIth Standard(to
the best of my knowledge).
She caught my eyes as she had likeness of both Anita Raj and Steffi Graf
or otherwise, both celebrities who were my heartthrob.My heart skipped a
beat as I felt I had found a girl of my liking(lookwise).The cupid had
struck me.
In adolescence, you are bound to make comparisons, me being
no exception, I also fell in traps of her charm(innocence,simplicity).Here,
I must admit , that it was a crush at first sight(at least at my end).Well
,after that , I cleared state level Engineering Entrance Exam and got
admission in the Regional Engg College ,Jaipur .As expected , one starts
flying high ,once in college due to unlimited amount of freedom , so did
I .Moreover, I had a brand new Mobike in my possession, added to full
masti.
I used to visit my cousin's(Tina-My mausi's daughter) place quite regularly,
as she was of my age and we used to share a lot many things in common.
There ,sometimes, incidentally, I used to meet Renu . Renu has always
been a shy and simple person, never indulged in free talks or chats, on
the contrary, I used to enjoy meeting people make friends (especially
of opposite sex) . My cousin's place was ultimate rendezvous for me ,as
lot many of her friends used to gather at her place frequently for afternoon
parties.So keeping my fingers crossed ,I used to go to her place , praying
for girls to be there.
There were many of them , some were quite pretty and witty ,some were
quite bindaas,others were girly sort of (back biting, typical
.).But
in one corner ,this girl Renu used to sit, who was quite different from
them all. I used to wonder sometimes, that what's going through her mind,
but always failed to make out , as she never used to indulge in free talks
with me, always used to draw a line.This particular behaviour of her also
urged me to know more about her. Slowly and gradually , I started developing
a special status for her in my heart, I couldn't give it a name, as I
was never ready for a steady relationship with a girl at that moment of
my life. At that time , I wanted to freak out with as many girls as possible(as
you know, it's always good to discuss as many relations with girls as
possible when amongst friends). But for Renu , I always had a sense of
respect ,because she was different ,and never gave a clue of being modern
types.
So, slowly and gradually she chiseled and carved a soft corner in my heart.
Superficially, I used to deny the fact by saying that she's just a good
acquaintance and nothing else, but slowly , after intense leg pulling
by my cousins and close friends ,I must say, I started thinking of her.
Now, in order to test her feelings towards me, I asked my cousin to discuss
with her, the prospects of having an affair with me . I knew, Renu ,would
take this matter lightly ,as our natures were poles apart , and we did
not ,by any chance, ought to make a good pair. My cousin told me that
she also liked me ,but hated my flirt nature. I was very happy to know
this , but didn't disclosed anything in front of her. These pranks and
parties continued for years , I used to chat with other girls ignoring
her, and could easily make out that she used to feel jealous.
College days were over, got a job at Malvika Steel Ltd,Lucknow , had to
leave Jaipur for the first time. All fun , masti , partying had to cease,
above all , leaving behind the sweet memories was a load for me. But by
that time ,neither me nor did she had any idea or thought of getting hooked
up in a steady affair. It was all light , full of youth , teenage crush
sort of by then.
Whenever I used to come to jaipur , I used to enquire about her from my
cousin and get to know that ,she also used to enquire my well being from
her. We (me and Renu) never talked over phone or face to face in private
by then. Then after few time, I joined Hindalco, and went farther to Renukoot
, There on I started making calls to her (once in a fortnight ) that too
for a few seconds, just to hear her voice .
Next came Tina's marriage, we all went to Agra ,to attend her marriage,
Renu being best friend of her, accompanied her to Agra. I was overjoyed
to see her , same pranks and leg-pulling continued .
One day, after the marriage, me and my mother went to Asha Mausi's palce
, there she started telling /discussing marriage events to my mother.
As my mother didn't accompany us to Agra ,she was too eager to know the
happenings. All of a sudden , I don't remember on what matter, my mausi
started praising Renu and started discussing a prospective matrimonial
alliance with me. I was more then embarrassed, least expected had happened.
But I was very happy , as I could not rule out the eventuality of us (me
n renu) getting married by then. My mausi asked of my view over this proposal,
superficially , I showed as if I'm least bothered and effected person
of these talks.
On our way back, my mother asked me ,if I liked the girl , I immediately
nodded and supported by saying that , the girl is sober and we all have
seen her for many years and know about her nature and true character.
My mother said that she also liked the girl but the only hindrance being
the caste factor, she was apprehensive about people raising their brows
for an inter-caste relationship. But she definitely assured me that she'd
discuss the matter with Papa. The same night I rang up Renu ,to officially
propose her , by this time , I had not committed anything, whatsoever
, to her. She at once accepted the proposal, and we agreed to meet for
the first time somewhere else, predecidedly and without the presence of
my cousin. So the next day we met at Archies Gallery in Raja Park, I was
feeling very nervous as was she(I came to know later) . We stayed there
for 10-15 minutes discussed a few things and went back. The same night
, I had to go back to Hindalco, as my holidays were ending . She convinced
me that ,at right moment she will discuss the matter with her parents
and would seek their approval.
We used to talk to each other over phone , I would always remember the
hefty bills I used to pay for chatting over STD .A major chunk of my salary
used to be spent in making calls. After a few days, she mustered up courage,
and had a discussion with her parents regarding the prospective alliance.
Her parents, took this sportingly , and gave their consent for this marriage.
But after a few discussions with their relatives , they withdrew and refuted
this relationship. Renu broke down and used to cry all the times . She
even stopped talking to me over phone as her parents objected to this.
Later on ,after so many difficulties ,with the help of one my mausis ,
I arranged to have a telecon with her , she cried and cried over phone
asking me to marry somewhere else, and that she will never marry in her
life.
I consoled her ,and asked her to muster up her strength and become adamant
for this relation and nothing else. She took my words, and stuck to her
commitment. Slowly and gradually , time proved to be a great healer, her
parents started taking interest in me . As time passed I left Hindalco
and joined Software stream in Jaipur itself. Her parents indirectly ,
by now, had given their nod to this relation.
So , as a token , on 29th September 2001( Renu's B'day) they invited me
to their place. From their gestures , I could make out that they liked
me , it was such a heartening feeling for me, and thus I achieved what
I wanted , with the consent of her dear ones.